無敵小眼睛的大世界

I guess I am just a lil' too desperate.

That's why everything feels so wrong at this very moment.

On this very special day of the year,

I am feeling WORSE than any other days.

"I had been right, I was still right, I was always right.

I had lived my life one way and I could just as well have lived it another.

I had done this and I hadn't done that. I hadn't done this thing but I had done another.

And so?"--- Albert Camus

However, I'd like to say

Thank you all my loved ones.

You mean a lot to me, really.

Even though I am always depressed and  distant and soooo pessimistic,

I hope you understand that I am still the same in heart and stuggling to be better.

Loneliness has hit me real hard this past year, so much I don't feel myself anymore.

Probably led to some ridiculous decisions I made this year too.

Anyways,

I better not say too much of something I'd regret later.

There are a few people who truly deserve an answer.

I am sorry I don't feel like bringing it up here on this day.

All I can say is,

Stop asking for it and just leave me alone.

'Cuz you will not get anything, even just a tiny sigh.

I will not comment on whatever matter it is anymore.

What has been done has been done.

It will always be this way from now on.

"Don't walk behind me; I may not lead.

Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow.

Just walk beside me and be my friend. "--- Albert Camus

What I wished at my cake yesterday were

1. Everyone of my loved ones is all well in every ways

2. Hurry up find THE JOB

3. Meet Mr. Right or someone close to it

btw It was a very yummy cake.

It made my day.